i'm.gone.with.the.sin.

[arric suviyö.]

Reserved for:
aleutian delacruz.

Arric walked out of the restaurant and wandered around it. He was just bored and had a lot on his mind… so much has happened. He had gotten a bite of what his mortal life was like.. He sighed some as he stuffed his hands in his pockets. Funny. The more he found out about his human life the more he got confused and lost. It was like having a time limit to put together a billion piece puzzle that was missing one million pieces and time was running out… Speaking of time limits. He still couldn’t believe he was given a time limit… to remember someone who was close to him…. It seemed inhuman and unfair.

Arric growled some at the thought as he remembered the fresher memories of Alexis. And ones that popped up every once in a while. WHY COULDN’T HE REMEMBER?? He growled as he bared his fangs and hit the wall with his fist. Finally breaking out of the thoughtfulness. He noticed he was in an alley and had no idea where he wandered to. But what else was knew.. He never knew anything anymore. He heard a sound and he turned around quickly eyes searching the site for the noise as h scrunched his nose up and the space between his eyebrows wrinkled and he bared his fangs. “Who’s there?” He demanded with a growl in his voice.

[[OOC;; yeah it bites... HAHAHA HES A VAMPIRE I MADE A FUNNY xDDD]]

[aleutian delacruz.]

& I found the cure to growing older.
No, really.

She sat in the small alleyway, her head up against the brick wall, her lanky arms hugging her knees to her chest. Thoughts swirled through her mind, what was she doing here? It was all so frusterating, and her bloodlust was only growing as every moment passed. But, that would be her very first kill as a Vampire. She was pretty sure by now she wouldnt die by not feeding. No, nothing seemed to kill her. No matter how bad she wanted it.

Maybe she would go on some sort of old school killing spree.

Unconsciously, of course.

Aleutian didnt even know if she was capable of taking another's life, and if she were she knew it would haunt her forever. Even those who's death's hadnt been on her hands still followed her closely. She could almost feel Kayne's limp body in her hands, closing her eyes a bit, fighting back the feelings that threatened to defeat her defences.

Not now. She growled silently to herself, wishing she couldnt just fall over and stop breathing. If only it was that simple.

She almost jumped as she heard a voice, but soon remembered what she was now, realizing there was nothing to be afraid of. And if there was, it really didnt seem that bad. Death would be getting off easy at this point.

Suicidal?

No. But, whatever tihs was, couldnt be considered living, so that was irrelevant. "Edgar Allen Poe!" She yelled sarcastically, hitting her head backwards o the brick a few times, feeling like a complete and total idiot, or, failure.

She thought of what her mother would have thought of her, but soon remembered her and realized she culdnt stay sober long enough to realize what she had become. Yet, she missed her prostitute mother. As for Kayne, well, she knew he wouldnt care what became of her. They were siblings, and that was all that mattered to him. Never had she met anyone as caring and accepting as Kayne. It was ironic, though, he died only a few months previous of heart cancer.

If you could describe Aleu's life in one word, I would most deinfately be irony.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric was scanning the premises for the person or creature sitting there. He smelled the air trying to pick up the scent of who it was but it was unrecognizable. He kept his defensive stance until he heard a voice. Sounded like a female something. His head cocked slightly in the way she spoke and he walked over raising an eyebrow. Keeping his fangs visible. Just in case.

"Yeah... I wish." He mutterd about it being Edgar Allen Poe. He eventually got close enough to the person to see that it was a girl. He didnt hear a pulse seeing as he was listening closely for it. She had to be a vampire. She didnt pose enough threat to be a shapeshifter. "Who are you?" He asked in a calmer voice as he looked at the girl and took another step closer.

[OOC;; Ick sorry forgive me still half asleep =[ ]

[aleutian delacruz.]

so many bright lights
that cast a shadow

She heard the boy speak again, scoffing a bit before murmering to herself, "So do I."

Anything's better than this... she thought to herself, too afraid to speak aloud and have him hear such words. WHat was wrong with her lately? Aleutian barely ever used to miss any chance to have fun or go out on impulse, but she could barely feel those impulses anymore. She wanted to just hit herself upside the head and set herself ack to normal. She just couldnt find it in her, the fun, outgoing, crazed, childish girl she used to be.

She was wary as he stepped closer, but going through the same though process as she had before, what could it hurt? She glanced up at the boy with pitiful voids. Who was she? It took her awhile, pondering the thought. No she handt lost her memory, just herself. "Aleutian DeLaCruz." she murmered a bit, looking still rather standoffish.

"So, what brings you here--" She said, as more of a wasy of asking his name than anything else.

Thats a start.

Trying to start a conversation. That was good. She looked around the dark alley way, thinking again of how desperately she missed the sun, she warm concrete beneath her, food, warm sand, just... warmth. She always seemed so cold lately. Not physically, it felt normal and she barely got hot, or cold, these days. Just.. cold. Altogether.

She looked at his fangs thoughtfully, running her tounge over her own. She had barely opened her mouth to speak, even if he was a vampire. This was definately something she did not want to advertize. No, the very opposite.

She felt so out of place, always hiding, being alone. She missed people, parties, just... fun. No, Aleutian was really well liked enough for real parties, but sitting around with kayne with a table of food and star wars seemed just fine to her.

Kayne. The tought ran a shiver down her spine.

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[arric suviyö.]

Arric listened to her murmer So do I and he pressed his lips together making his fangs go back to human sized teeth. They were still sharp yes but they didnt look that abnormal. He was non-living in a human world. As a singer of a band. He had to keep himself straight so no one could pick him out of something. Seeing as he didnt need his race to be found out about and he didnt need himself to be discovered neither.

Arric watched her as she seemed to be deep and thought. And he didnt need to use Empathy to tell that something was on her mind and that she was sad. But he wasnt one to pry unless she told him. That or spark his interest. Otherwise he wasnt about to tackle her and be like RAWR TELL ME CAUSE IM NOSEY!!! =] He had his own secrets he didnt like telling people. Why be hypocritical.

Arric listened to her murmur her name and he nodded. Trying to think of the name to see if he had heard it anywhere or not. For all he knew she could be from his past too right? But nothing came up. Damn his memory. Damn it to hell. He growled slightly at the fact that he barely remembered anything anymore. It sucked big time. A huge part of him was missing and he was trying desperately to get it back. And with Alexis' help he was getting it back... little by little. He owed her sooo much. He just wished there was some way to push his memory harder. He didnt want her to die.

Arric snapped out of his zoning out of the thoughts in his head and he looked at the girl again. "Arric.... Arric Suviyö.. Its Finnish..." He spoke looking at her. How he gained his name he may never know or remember for that matter =] He just found out it was Finnish thanks to the modern day computer. "Dont mind me asking..." He asked before speaking again, "but what are you doing in an alley at this time of night? Especially at this time of night. Where something can get you.." He spoke not meaning to be offensive as if like RAWR I CAN ATTACK YOU but as in OTHER things could. Especially other not so nice vampires.

[aleutian delacruz.]

lock and load


Aleutian didnt understand how some people were open books, willing to share anything and everything with any stranger who happened to act like they care. Aleutian found it pointless, just a waste of breath. But even breathing had lost its preciousness now.

Aleutian, in all honestly, wasnt that uptight about being found out. So, what, they'd torture her and run tests on her. In her opinion, it would give her a purpose. She longed for purpose, but she wasnt about to go to such extremes. Not yet anyway.

The thought about it for a moment, was finnish the big culture here or something? Her severe american accent, [or lack of accent, as she thought of it.] made her feel suprisingly more out of place than she thought was possible. Everyone here seemed to have their place, they're clique, you might call it. Aleutian had literally lost everything, and as much as she wanted to belong, she didnt. It was odd, but she almost just wanted to sit there forever and just wallow away for all eternity. But she knew that would get rather old.

It used to be, that she figured she might as well be happy and make the most of the time she had. But now, she had forever, and that though was chilling. She shrugged a bit as he questioned her, "Just bored, I guess." She lied smoothly, it seemed believable enough to her. "Honestly, that's the least of my worries." She said bluntly, pulling her legs down so she was sitting cross legged, still looking rather recessive. She was too tired to fight anymore.

"You didnt answer my question" She pointed out, raising a brow in his direction.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric looked at her and pondered about what she was thinking of. And guessed it was either about his name or the finnishness. He wasnt quite sure. "What?" He asked her cocking his head to the side slightly. He was just curious if she knew him or something of the sort. Would help him deeply.

Arric watched her as she seemed to be thinking about things again and he raised an eyebrow some at her. "You seem to think a lot." He spoke observing out loud as he watched her. Poor thing. She looked like a tortured soul. But thats what this Vampire life always brought. No one really wanted this burden on themselves. But for Arric it was different. He liked being who he was. Because it was like living his first life. The only thing he regretted was his memory which he lacked. But it was like he was given a chance play things out.

Arric listened to her say that she was just bored and he shrugged. He put his hands in the pockets of his jacket he was wearing. It was a H.I.M. jacket seeing as he was drawn to that band. Wether it was because of they were Finnish or most of their songs were.. deathish. He didnt know. He listened to what she said and he nodded. "Yeah I get you there." He spoke about it being the least of her worries and he looked over at the entrance where a human was stareing at them in the alley. He just let his fangs grow and he smirked at the girl whos eyes widdened and she hurried away as if nothing happened. He didnt care. Wasnt like the girl was gunna believe what she saw anyways right. He let them go back normal and he looked back at Aleu.

Arric listened to her speak and his eyebrows raised slightly. "Hm?... Oh right. Sorry. I dont know. I end up walking places I dont know when I am deep in thought letting my mind wander." He spoke looking at the bricks going up the wall behind her to up to the top.

[aleutian delacruz.]

i was killingbefore killing was cool.

She tilted her head towards the ground as he spoke, thinking for a momento f how to respond, "Nothing.. Just, I've only met two people here and both have been finnish." She was to the point now, not really feeling like wasting time on cryptic or hidden meandings. She wanted things to be simple again, well, at least simpler than this.

She shrugged agani as he spoke, almost, almost smiling at that moment, "Hey, I've got forever to do whatever. Gotta fill up that time somehow.." She said, glancing around, exhaling sharply as a line of thoughts hit her. Was kayne watching down on her? He couldnt stand to see her like this, and she couldnt stand to hurt him. She closed her eyes for a moment, inhaling as she thought for a moment.

"Come on." she said, suddenly standing up, grabbing his arm and tugging him after her. She didnt know where they were going, but she needed to do something. She couldnt mope any longer, for fear of hurting her brother. Her dead brother. She thought for a moment, about him, she would have traded her life, even if it was her human life, for him. He was better than her, he was amazing. He was a hero. If she could help just one person the way he helped her, she wouldt be fine. He wouldnt have died in vein.

She glanced at the people staring at her like she was crazy, and found her bloodlust bringing her towards them, baring her teeth fro a moment before she composed herself. "Ugh. I hate this." She muttered, again more to herself than anything. She tended to do that a lot.

She glanced around, seeing a little park and grinning sheepishly. She was still tugging on the male, hoping not to anger him. She was rather delighted when she saw a teeter totter, jumping over to one side. "Mhmm. You know, where I'm from, teeter totters are illegal? Its fricken retarded. They are 'hazardous.' God, Im more 'hazardous' than the stupid teeter totters." She said, looking a bit pouty, though a grin was subtly finding its way to her face.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric looked at her as she thought and listened to what she said and he half smiled. "Let me guess.. Alexis Velho right?" He asked chuckling slightly from his chest. "Well dont worry... Alexis and I are the only Finnish people here... at least that I know of. Then again I dont know a lot of people." He s;oke blinking some at his thought. Hmm. Wow. He had gone a long time without many friends. How in the hell did he manage. Remembering and controlling himself was like the main priority lately... maybe he needed to loosen up big time.

Arric watched as she looked slightly very slightly happier and he smiled a little bit. He listened to what she said and he nodded with a chuckle. "I suppose so." He spoke smiling. He watched her go into another thinking spree and he shook his head smiling. He watched her close her eyes and inhale as if some thought was stabbing her or something. "You okay?" He asked her as his eyebrows narrowed in wonder and confusion.

Arric listened to her say come on and he blinked looking at her confused. "Huh? Where are we goin?" He asked as he let the girl pull him wherever they were going. He jogged a couple steps so he was next to her instead of being dragged behind him. Still confused as hell on what just happened. It was like 'woah what happened? o__o;;' But yeah.

Arric watched her interact with the humans and her fangs bared. Ah she was a new vampire resisting blood lust. That was always a fun first few years for him [insert sarcasm here]. "Ah I see." He spoke and he listened to what she said and he nodded. "You know... there are ways to make the blood lust go away without killing any humans. Some people call themselves vegetarians and only go after animals. But they have to be careful that they dont attack the shapeshifters." He spoke nodding. "It takes a while to get used to a different type of blood but its worth it... I like to switch between the two. Cause to me Animals blood is just as good. Its all about whos around me when I get hungry I suppose." He spoke shrugging.

Arric wathced her grin and he did a little bit too and followed her into the park. Well more or less got dragged. But he didnt care. It was better then being concentrated on thoughts 24/7. He listened to what she said and he watched her and he chuckled a little bit."I dont remember if we had teeter totters back when I was human. Hell I dont even remember if I have been to a park when I was a child." He spoke shrugging and he got on on one side. He swung his leg over and sat. "Care to teeter totter?" He asked with a slight smile.

[aleutian delacruz.]

i'll be fine, I swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

She nodded a bit, thinking of the girl. It wasnt that she disliked her, but she didnt take well to charity work. It was one thing, in her humble opinion, to help a friend, it was another to offer charity to a total stranger, someone who clearly wasnt ready to accept what she had become. She wasnt even sure whatr to say at that point, deciding to be content (of course, I use that therm /very/ loosely) with the deafening silence.

HSe shook her bright orange hair out, thinking for a moment maybe she should pick a mellower hair color to draw less attention to herself. Thoug she knew no matter what she'd always pull a spaz at attract negative attention to herself. She made no movement now as he spoke, saying simply, "No." But she paused for a moment before continuing slowly, "But, are any of us really okay?" It was, of course a retorical question, she wasnt looking for an answer, simply stating a fact. everyone had their shit. Some more than others.

"Neverland!" She announced, rather pointlessly. If only there were a place like neverland to escape to. If only there were anywhere to escape to. She had never before felt to trapped and hopeless, and she felt like a caged animal in some circus with all the dirty looks and second glances. It was driving her crazy and one of these days she knew she wasnt going to be able to take it. What scared her most, was that if she did lose her temper, even for a moment, she could take a life in an instant, and have to live (another term i use loosely) with that the rest of her life...or death. Or whatever you wuld call this state.

She shook her head a bit as he spoke about 'vegitarian' vampires. The grin soon faded from her facade and she looked rather serious for a moment, "I," She paused, closing eyes rather painfully for a moment, "When you," She couldnt put it into words, how was she supposed to? She was tounge tied and hurting. "I've grown up with people dying around me... everyone I care about," She looked down at the concrete past the boy, not looking so much as near his face, "I've seen so many people hurting, and I've seen, and felt, what it's like to have someone taken from you forever." She wasnt even sure why she was telling the boy all this, maybe she just needed to get it off her chest, "I can't be the one to take a life, human or not. I just... I cant." She bit her lip, and repeated, "I just.. I cant."

[arric suviyö.]

Arric watched her nod and he smiled a little bit. "Yeah... I met her the other day. And apparently I knew her from somewhere. She was kind of angry at me for not remembering her though." He spoke shrugging. Eh he didnt have many days left with the suicidal vampire and thats what scared him. Hence why he had to remember. Absolutely had to. He didnt want her to do that to herself. No pressure right?

Arric watched her shake her head and say no and he nodded. He listened to what she said and he closed his eyes cocking his head to the side and shrugging all at the same time with a =/ face. "You've got a good point. Sorry. Was a stupid question." He spoke smiling a little bit. Pfft moron. Nothing was alright anymore dumb butt =]

Arric listened to her yell Neverland and he laughed. His laugh sounded demonic but he couldnt help it. Seeing as technically he was demonic. In the technical term =] "Neverland huh? We gunna see Peter Pan there too? And maybe if we are lucky Tinkerbell?" He asked chuckling. Hahahahaha Neverland. Would be an interesting place to go. "Second star to the right, straight until morning. Only problem is we might not make it to morning." He spoke smirking somewhat. Amused. Cause it was true. Sunlight wasnt their biggest fan.

Arric watched her grin fade and he frowned somewhat as he listened to her. "Well... You know you dont have to kill anything.. But if you dont feed soon you are going to end up doing something you wont like. Go for the weaker animals. Like the older ones or the ones that wont survive much longer anyways. Cause I hate to say it but if you dont feed you are going to lose control for a long while... And when you finally wake up from the state you were left in well.... Lets just say you wont be happy with yourself." He spoke seriously. He had been there. He didnt know about the blood thing. It seemed farfetched at first and denied it. Then again a few months later there was a huge slaughter... of people. Screams still echo in his ears. And quite honestly it haunted him. Hence why he tried feeding on animals more then humans. "Trust me on that... Its not a lovely sight." He spoke looking down at the ground. Its pretty bad. He was memoryless when he first started out. Making that slaughter the freshest memory in his mind to this day.

"If you want I can help you. On control. Ive been there trust me. If you do start with animals. And are against killing them then what you do is take a little bit of blood from a different animal. That way they can live. I just go after the dieing or the overpopulated animals." He spoke shrugging.

[aleutian delacruz.]

bring our hearts back


She listened, "Wait, so.. is this an amnesia kind of forget or just.. forget?" She asked, her mind still not really able to state words correctly, or form half decent sentances. The girl was actually very bright and literate, just... lost. She could remember her past all too clearly. She couldnt help but envy the boy, maybe he could still remember his past, just not the girl. Either way she wished she could forget something. Just make it a little simpler.

She shrugged a bit, shaking her head, "It wasnt. I'm just... off, you know? I cant.. think clearly. I can hardly even fathom what I am supposed to be doing with myself anymore." She said, a little more open now. She figured the worst he could do was go tell the whole vampire community about her little, trivial secrets and thoughts. And considering no one knew her, thatr woudl be easy to reverse.

"You only like tinkerbell 'cause she a slut." She said, flatly, though a smile bent her soft lips as she jumped on the teeter totter, not putting much weight on it to he could still get on, suddenly realizeing she had ignored his question.

Scatterbrained.

"of course we'll see Peter Pan!" She said, flashing the boy a toothy grin, for a moment not caring that her fangs were showing. She soon grew self conscious and closed her mouth. She didnt understand why, though. He was a vampire, too. It wasnt like he hadnt seen fangs before. She was just ... ashamed. "Hey, if vampires exist I'm sure neverland does too. Maybe we'll see a unicorn one of these days." She said, smiling, mouth closed, at the thought. Dorkface.

She listened thankful for the advice, though not taking the part to heart about going on a killing spree. She could control herself, couldnt she? It had been almost two weeks since she was converged, and she was starting to questoin how much longer she could go like this. "Thanks.." She said, sincerely, her hazel eyes full of hunger, remorse, and more than anything fear.

"Have you ever..." She paused for a moment, pondering if she could even be saying anything, "watched someone die? I mean, someone to care about. Someone you love?" She asked, genuinly curious. She wanted to know she wasnt alone, that there was hope out there. That there was a chance she could get through this, that she wouldnt go totally insane.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric listend to what she said and he shook his head. "Amnesia wise... I dont remember a lot of things of my past. And it sucks really bad. You may think its a blessing... but its a bigger curse then being this is." He spoke sighing some. "To not remember the happy moments in life.. I just found out recently I had a little sister. And I 'died' when she was 10... And according to my source aka Alexis, I was one of the most important things in her life... And it kills me to not remember." He spoke zoning off in thought. "That I cant remember someone who cared about me so deeply... I want to go visit my sister... But I have no idea what to say to her or how to act.. I dont even know what she will look like. But apparently I have a nephew too that I never met." He spoke sighing.

"My little sister was left alone for a very long time... Seeing as from what I heard my father killed himself years after the accident... And you dont know how horrible I feel to know that I left my 10 year old sister alone for that long just because I couldnt remember... Couldnt confront her... Couldnt make things better." He spoke slowly and bit his lip some. "Just because in my mnd she didnt exist..." He spoke then finally snapped out of his little rant of thoughts that just ran from his mind to his lips. He looked back at her and half smiled. "Sorry.... I tend to rant sometimes in thought."

Arric listened to her say that she didnt know what to do anymore and he nodded. "Its understandable. Dont worry about it." He spoke smiling a little. "Its hard the first year or two but living this life becomes a habit and its not as confusing anymore. Oppurtunities open. Like things you always wanted to do but couldnt. Like go to Paris to see the lights or going to Italy. Australia. England." He spoke smiling a little. "Cause now you have all the time in the world to do so. Only problem is you have 12 hours to do so... But wasnt that how life was before? When you had to only go out during the day or whatever?" He spoke and chuckled some.

Arric listened to what she said about Tinkerbell and he let out a booming laugh. "Hahahaha yeah. And you like Peter Pan because he wears tights right?" He spoke chuckling and he laughed even more about the Unicorn thing. "Yeah and maybe even goblins or mermaids if we are lucky." He spoke shaking his head with a smile. Hahahaha this was rediculous yet contently fun.

Arric listened to her and he nodded. "Im serious about the killing spree though... I told myself I wasnt going to do the blood thing. If I was dead then I can survive right? Well I was wrong. If I didnt go to a cave and black out afterwords then I would have been arrested and charged for about 50 counts of murder... Its dangerous to not feed when you are what we are... People get hurt." He spoke sighing. "A lot of the people I killed that day was killed for sticking up against me to save their loved ones.... It was terrifying remembering what I had done... I just couldnt control anything. It was like someone was controling my body and all I could do was look through the eyes of what was happening." He spoke and shivered uncomfortably at the terrible memories.

Arric listened to what she said and he nodded. "Sadly yes I have. Its one of my only memories of my human life... I got into a car accident... I was exstatic about going home... dont remember why... I think it was my birthday. 18th Birthday. My mother went out with me so I could be distracted while im guessing my father and sister planned a surprise party... Only problem is neither of us made it home... I was driving and wasnt paying attention seeing as I wanted to get home soon.... And I got hit by a drunk driver... On the passenger side so I watched as my mother died next to me as I tried to control my car before it was pinned to another car... Next thing I remember is waking up in a cave with a complete stranger telling me what happened and what I become..." He spoke taking a shakey breath. "He changed me before my heart stopped beating completely.."

[aleutian delacruz.]

what must we do to restore our innocence?


She listened intently as the boy spoke about his sister, closing her eyes at the tought, knowing exactly how the girl felt. To have someone who meant everything to you, who you grew up with die. But the worst of it, was that it wasnt quick. Cancer never was. The boy only lasted a year and a half, but she felt like she was constantly holding her breath, praying by some miracle that he would be okay. Had she known of vampires at this point, she may have been able to save him. She was constantly blaming herself for what she couldnt change, couldnt fix, couldnt save.

"Im sorry..." She said, knowing she couldnt even convieve what he was going through. She felt a bit guilty, being so depressed over nothing. Well, it wasnt nothing, no, it was far from nothing. But it was humbling to the girl, reminding her a bit of how she used to be, selfless. To be able to unconditionally care for others despite herself. If it hadnt have been such a solemn moment, she would probably has smiled, but she controlled herself.

She nodded as the boy spoke, "You never really realize what you have til its gone." She said, her eyes looking pained again, thinking back to it all. She was okay for a while, with kayne. He was all she needed. But he didnt need her like she needed him, Kayne had a girlfriend who made his life worth living. But once the girl was brutally shot down and kayne avoided death by an inch and was put into a coma for two weeks, he lost hope. Soon after he was diagnosed with heart cancer, and then he died, having no real reason to hold on anymore. Of course, he had aleutian, but his heart was weak, he wanted his dear Lindsay more than the world itself. And now, aleutian was alone, well, not literally of course. "Does she know yet? That you're alive?"

Honestly she was thinking of Twilight at this point. Well, New Moon actually. How edward told Bella he couldnt live if she was dead, how he would take his own life (trying to to give anything away. spoiler!). Aleutian had seen too many suicides in her time, Kanye's death actually a subtle suicide so Aleu wouldnt be hurting and seeing him in his final hours. How Lindsays dad took her life when she was dead. it was a circle of death, and a painful realization to Aleutian how people relied on other people too much.

"I miss the sun..." She said honestly, a look on her face that was unrecognizable. She seemed happy, running through memories of the daylight, though a solemnness to her brigh face. "Thanks, though. I just.. I cant decide. it sounds crazy, but I dont have enough time. My will power isnt that strong." She saimd simply, twitching her fingers, then seeing a squirrel and tensing them tightly around the handle of the teeter totter, desperately trying to resist the urge. She didnt even know how to hunt at this point, and she wasnt going to let it get to the point of shear instinct.

"Hell yes. Ima sucker for a boy in tight pants. If only I could get him to wear /red/ pants. That is like, the epitome of sexyness." She said, grinning stupidly over at him. "Mermaids? Jesus. They're skanks too, you horney bastard." She said, obviously just messing with him about the swearing, grinning stupidly still. Aleutian was a dork. No doubt about it.

She listened to his story, "Im sorry," She mumbled, looking at him, her eyes warm, understanding. "Death is a bitch." She said simply, nodding a bit to herself, thinking about the tragic scene in her head, imagining ever greusome detail. Because she was disturbed like that. "So, you were changed to save you're life?" Again, her thought were brought back to twilight. She had never really connected the book and real life before. She remembered being changed, brutally attacked on the street. Of course, she was only changed after the man had had his way with her.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric listened to what she said about being sorry and he shook his head and smiled a little bit. "I try not to dwell on it that much... Theres nothing I could have done except rot in the ground next to my parents." He spoke shrugging. "My father killed himself. I saw it in a paper. Some people claimed he was going crazy because he saw a figure of his boy walking around downtown one night,,, He was consumed with depression and shot himself. Leaving Alia by herself. Apparently he did see me because I wandered around that town a lot." He spoke nodding. "It sucks but I cant change it so im not dwelling on it too much. I have more things to worry about... Stuff I can change you know?" He spoke with a slight smile.

Arric listened to what she said and he smiled a little bit. "I wish I could say the same thing. I would rather feel the pain of loss then the wonder of who they were and why they were important to me." He spoke nodding and he shrugged. He listened to her ask if his sister knew that he was alive and he shook his head. "No not yet. Alexis and I are supposed to go see her. But ive been... holding off... I dont remember her yet... You know what its like when someone would walk up to you and go 'Oh hey its been forever!' and you have know idea who it is? Thats my life in summary fashion... What am I supposed to say to her? If I was alive I would be 35 which makes her 27. I have less an idea to say to her then I would if my parents appeared before me as ghosts." He spoke nodding.

Arric watched her be deep in thought and he thought a little bit too. "Funny isnt it?" He spoke then realized she probably had no idea what he was talking about. "The stuff we used to be afraid of and think they were just myths and bed time stories... They end up being true. Im sure I never even thought that Vampires and Werewolves walked among the living. Here I am now a singer of a band thats pretty popular and im something im sure I never thought I would ever be." He spoke smiling and shaking his head.

Arric listened to what she said and he shook his head. "I dont that much. I like the night more... Because more mysterious things happen in the night giving it a thrilling feel you know? It being dark and these days you never know what you might find. I dont know about you but I find that quite fun." He spoke smiling. "Almost as fun as scareing the shit out of people." He spoke chuckling quite a bit before sitting on the teeter totter. He had to keep his feet on the ground to keep from the teeter totter sinking to the floor under his weight. He kicked off some and it was quite akward seeing as he was a bunch more her size. So he sat in the one closer to the middle so it wouldnt be so akward in weight.

Arric watched her look at the squirrel and he shook his head smiling recognizing the look. "Look. Before the sun rises I need to go hunting seeing as im more careful about consuming as much animal blood I cant so history doesnt repeat itself. Do you want to come with me? I can help you with the hunting part." He spoke nodding. Sometimes if its hunting season its easier. Because some heartless people shoot deer and other animals. Then decide they dont want it and leave it for the taking. All you have to do is beat the buzzards to it." He spoke nodding as if it was common conversation.

Arric listened to what she said and he chuckled. "Oh yes. Who isnt a sucker for a man in bright red tights?" He asked and laughed. He listened to what she said and he stuck his tongue out at her. "THATS NOT NICE." He spoke and laughed. "Im sure if you saw a merman you would be all over him too so take that miss delacruz." He spoke chuckling. Just being goofy is all.

Arric listened to what she said and he shook his head. "Though this will be a hypocritical statement, sorry is used too much. Especially when its not needed. So dont worry about it." He spoke with a smile on his face. He listened to her say that Death is a bitch and he nodded. "Yup." He spoke simply agreeing with her. He listened to what she said about being changed and he nodded. "Yeah. That part I dont remember too much about because I was unconcious when it happened. That and a 5 year old has a better produced memory then I do at the moment." He spoke chuckling.

[aleutian delacruz.]

i've seen love die way too many times.


She blinked hard, responding simply, "Sometimes it's all you can do to keep it off you're mind." She said simply, thinking maybe she should try to same. But, aleutian had no distractions, well, no lasting ones anyway. Sure, there was the boy for the moment [well, man rather...] but soon enough he would be gone and she would be left alone with her thoughts. "Im sorry, She repeated again, hardly meaning to. But she was, yet again, at a loss for words. She listened intently at the boy's take on things biting her lip again, it made sense. "Yeah," She said, smiling a bit, halfheartedly. He had stuff he could change, aleutian was lost. Alone. There was nothing for her to even think of changing to make herself feel better. She'd lost everything. What was she supposed to do? A shudder ran down her spine at the though of being completely alone again, wishing desperately she had something, just one thing to hold on to.

She shrugged, "I guess I cant really comment, considering I cant not remember anything." She said, making a bit of a face as she spoke, not really sure if it even made sense. "But there's only so much pain a person can take, right? Where is the line drawn?" She said, sort of thinking aloud, glancing at the teeter totter oddly, as if it had just started glowing or something. "Do it. Just suck it up and do it." She said, rather passionately "You never know when something will go wrong, and you'll lose your chance." She said, not trying to be bossy, no, she was to recessive for that, she just had been in that situation too many times before. Too, too many times.

"Wait... so, you're thirty five? Shit, i feel like im four years old now. My apologies for the whole teeter totter thing. Im still running on those four year old impulses." She said, feeling rather stupid at that moment. Age never really effected her, but she knew it made other people feel awkward and stuff. "Just, tell her you love her. It doesnt have to be some fancy cryptic message. Just, tell her you care, you wanted to be there. Say, you got hit over the head or something. Comas are always good excuses." She said, looking rather dispondent. She didnt want to see the boy lose his sister who he cared about.

She smiled a bit as he spoke, though it quickly faded to her pleading, deperate eyes as he spoke of werewolves. "Werewolves?" She asked, feeling like an idiot, yet again, but everyone had to learn sometimes. "So, are we like supposed to be sworn enemies or something? 'Cause Im just running blind here." She said, looking back up to him, still looking a bit scared. She wondered how many rumors about werewolves were true, it they posed a threat to her. She was worried, and scared. Why was she scared? She smiled a bit at herself, at least she was feeling something now.

She nodded a bit. "I get what you mean," She said, sighing a bit before continuing, "I just, I miss the way things used to be. I miss the simple things, just, everything not being so complicated. Not being afraid.." She said, looking away again, fighting back tears that threatened her defenses. She still felt inferior to the boy, something a lot of people worked hard to accomplish in the girl. Yeah, so she used to live in fear, but it was never, never like this. This was real, blood chilling fear. Not that she really had blood. Well, nothing pumping anything. Did she? It never crossed her mind. "What, what all changes when you're converged?" she asked, looking up at him thoughtfully, her expression still a bit pleading, sad, despondent. She smiled a bit as his next comment, "Yeah. Though, Im not so sure I need to try on that one" She smiled a bit at her own idiocy. She noticed the boy trying to even out the weight. She realized she had gotten a lot, thinner. Her small stature didnt help either. She barely reached five feet, and considering her lack of feeding, she was pretty frail.

She smiled a bit at his offer, she still felt like just another face, though. Nothing special, just one of those annoying people you try to help just so they dont feel bad. "Yeah, please. I'd appreciate that." She thought about it, still feeling a bit bad about it. Stupid tree hugger vampire behavior!

"No one. Even you. Im sure you'd so go gay for any guy in red pants... assuming you arent already, I may be making the female gender look like shit right about now." She said, grinning at her own stupidity on the matter. She was a bit self decreciated, but she never really noticed it. "Bah. Yeah right. They have like, a FIN. Its a turn off. Im not gonna like. Im more into the third leg." She said, pausing for a moment, a grin breaking across her face. "If you catch my drift." She thought about it for a moment. was she actually /happy?/ No, it couldnt be. Could it? Was she feeling anything or just tricking herself?

"When its not needed." She clearified, "In my case, it usually is." She said simply, shrugging a bit. I guess it was a bit obvious she had been downsized for the majority of her life, though all those miserious bruises dissappeared after she was converted. "Consider yourself lucky." She said simply, not in a mean way, she understood how much it must hurt, but he had to understand the pro's to his situation as well. She culdnt remember much of it, just the striking pain through her body. It was indescribeable. Intense didnt even begin to cover it.

[arric suviyö.]

Arric listened to her speak and he shrugged a little bit. "I suppose but there is better ways to spend time. I dont have that many friends at all really.. But I find ways to distract myself. As bad as that sounds." He spoke and chuckled a little bit. He listened to her say that she was sorry again and he raised an eyebrow at her. "Hey. No. No sorrys aloud remember? If you trip and accidently stab me with a hot potatoe then I will accept the 'Im sorry's." He spoke just trying to make her be undepressedified =] He was sure that made probably less sense then... well anything.

Arric listened to what she said and he smirked some shaking his head. "I guess not." He spoke and saw her face and it made him chuckle. He listened to what she said next and he made a slight face. "Yeah I guess so... You've got a point there." He spoke nodding. "Well the line is drawn where you want it to be. Dont let things bother you so much. Im not saying that if someone dies then get over it. Im saying that... You need to try to make things better. Like find ways to even out the balance between the good and the bad. Karma only works if you meet it halfway... Im not sure if that made any sence but I like to think what I say is smart." He spoke chuckling a little more.

Arric listened to what she said and he laughed a little bit and thought about it. Counting the years again in his head. "No wait... My bad I would be 45 in human years and my sister would be 37. Thats my fault. Always was bad at math." He spoke shaking his head with a smile. "Dont worry about it. I may have the human years of 45 but I still have the body and mind of an 18 year old. Besides. Playgrounds and teeter totters are fun sometimes.. like now." He spoke with a smile. Wow this was the most positive attitude he had towards someone in a while. Then again, he hadnt spoken to a lot of people in a while.

Arric listened to what she said about his sister and he sighed a little bit nodding. "Yeah well it doesnt break the akwardness, Like if the subject comes up about childhood or something. I cant say anything... I dont know im probably just being rediculous." He spoke shaking his head at himself. "Ah I cant lie though... I can but seeing as Alexis is there that would be a big no no. I promised no more lieing. Besides she would know if I was in a coma. I had my drivers liscence on me and they would have notified my father I was alive. Nice try but thanks." He spoke smiling some.

Arric listened to her ask about werewolves and he nodded. "Of course there are werewolves. And no they dont like us too much. But there are some that dont care for our existance and dont pick a fight. Yet there are some out there aiming to destroy us all. There are more then just Werewolves. The shapeshifters consist of Werewolves, Werefoxes, Wererats, Etcetera." He spoke nodding. "But there isnt nothing to worry about. They may be strong but you havent seen your own strength yet I figure. You will be surprised the strength you possess. You just have to eat first you know?" He spoke nodding.

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OOC; Not done sorry will finish later cause i gotta go =/

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